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How will it be for you....

How does this day flow...

Are you stuck in bed with an illness you just can't shake, while memories float above your mind. Restless sleep that only makes the heartache stronger. Or perhaps you are sitting at work, with only the occasionally pondering allowed. Where your mind wanders off with the thoughts of words said, and those unsaid. Only to have to pull yourself back in and focus on the task at hand. No silent place to shed your tears, no warm embrace to quell your fears.

Perhaps you are in a place where the one next to you is grieving more. And you feel their pain amidst your own, and it's more than you want to share. Where you desire a hug, to comfort you, but you know there is no comfort in a shared loss. So you hide away, to let the grief be felt alone by those who bear it.

Or perhaps you are sitting and typing this. Fighting tears of sorrow, and wishing family wasn't so far. So many distractions to cover the hurt. But it's only a matter of time before the night brings a quiet house. I'm listening to the CD mom compiled, and some lyrics just seem to make the tears fall.



"Well, I told my momma on the day I was born, Don't you cry when you see I'm gone. You know there ain't no woman gonna settle me down, I just gotta be travelin' on."


"My yesterday's are all boxed up, and neatly put away. But every now and then you come to mind.....But your demons and your angels reappeared. Leaving all the traces of the man you thought you'd be. Leaving me with no place left to go from here. Leaving me with so many questions all these years. But is there somplace far away, someplace where all is clear. Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear, or are we left to wonder all alone eternally. No, this isn't how it's really meant to be."


"And I feel stuck watching history repeating. Yeah who am I? Just a kid who knows he's leaving."


"You've been taken by the wind, you have known the kiss of sorrow....You have come by way of sorrow, you have come by way of tears. But you'll reach your destiny, meant to find you all these years, meant to find you all these years....All the nights that joy has slept, will awake to days of laughter. Gone the tears that you have wept, you'll dance in freedom ever after."



"Let me know that you hear me.
Let me know your touch.
Let me know that you love me.
Let that be enough."

posted by doingwhatilove @ 11:44 AM