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Wahhh...I grew up!

I'm in the kitchen making cookies. Dinner's over, the kids are playing together, and I'm noticing w/o noticing their game. Jen is pretty much playing her own thing, voicing the various parts, complete with actions and attitude. I'm listening w/o listening to her game and I realize that I used to play the same way. We are so much alike, her and I, and I hope she will be able to hold on to that childhood mentality even into her 20's or 30's. I remember still playing with my dolls (Gotz, very nice) even after I got married, of course Jen usually joined me. But 6+ years later, they are laying in their plastic case (coffin), in the garage. I don't remember when I put them in there, but I think adulthood probably came shortly after. Ugh...

Having kids will not keep you young. It will age you faster, whether it be in physical apperance- Grey hairs, wrinkles, extra weight, and that famous "I lost some weight, look at what's leftover." Mentally- Calculating your age when they finally leave the house, realizing you can't fit into the really good hiding places, you over hear them tell their friends "Yeah, my mom's old", you realize that you are a seperate entity from your mom and dad-complete with your own family issues, and when playing "pirates" at the park with them is an embarrasment because "you're too old to play" or Financially- Their first car, college, weddings? You start calculating how many years you have to save.

But I've been blessed, for there is only one person I want to have by side whilst I grow "old" My love, my life, my husband. Together we shall bring up our children into (hopefully) wonderful young adults, so that we may laugh along with them as they realize their "oldness."

posted by doingwhatilove @ 8:22 PM