Friday, February 17, 2006

Breakaway...

So I'm sitting here playing around on the computer when I should really be cleaning the kitchen. I promised a friend I would make her a pie because she was at my house at 8:00 in the morning to watch my kids so I could take my sister and her kids to the airport. But I have to clean the kitchen first. Anyway, I'm listening to the Kelly Clarkson CD I got from iTunes. And the lyrics kinda hit me. These words remind of Jon.

Grew up in a small town, and when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window.
Dreaming of what could be, and if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out, but when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me.
Wanted to belong here, but something felt so wrong here
So I'd pray, I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly, I'll do what it takes 'til I touch the sky
Make a wish, take a chance, make a change, and breakaway.
Out of the darkness and into the sun, I won't forget all the ones that I love.
Take a risk, take a chance, make a change, and breakaway.

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly, though it's not easy to tell you goodbye.
Take a risk, take a chance, make a change, and breakaway.
Out of the darkness and into the sun, I won't forget the place I come from.
Take a risk, take a chance, make a change, and breakaway.


I miss my brother very much, but I find these words encouraging. Jon knew what he needed to do, and though I don't like
his decision to leave, I realize that he has found peace. Whenever I hear this song I will think of Jon's desire to be free of life's struggles. And know that he was finally able to breakaway. So Jon, wherever you are, I love you much. I'm glad and thankful for the years I got to spend with you. Peace be with you my brother.

posted by doingwhatilove @ 12:26 PM

1 Comments:

At 10:14 PM, Blogger liveasyouchoose said...

Not there yet. I have had those moments where I felt "I WANT to end this" Literally end it. And yet, I reached out for help. And hung on with all hope that "this too will pass". Generally, it did or I made the decision to make my attitude different. I can not seem to accept, yet, that Jon wouldn't do that. But I will get to your point at sometime, I just have to realize how hurt Jon was. And get over how much that hurts me in turn. time...Time...time...that is all I need.

I am proud of your strength Marion. I love you!

 

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